But then... you also have to figure out a way to survive that day to day.
I hear so many people talk about the drag and hating their job... honestly I just want to find a way that my life energizes me so that I wake and enjoy. To that end I may stay with my job, for, while there are days I don't want to go in and times when it drags, I enjoy my job and my coworkers. It's fun and there's great energy in it.
It's that energy that generally I'm feeling is lacking in this area I call home. It's almost stuck and most people seem to struggle with it. That bothers me, making me always half want to bolt away from here and half want to stay and change the base of it, ultimately twisting me into the stuck push pull of the area as well.
And to play the balance of adult life, always too much never enough. What an insane thing we've agreed to here. Can't make enough to support, can't make enough to survive. Always torn between work, working to get ahead, housework, social time and pleasure. Is it any wonder that it's our social lives that die?
I am one who enjoys work. I enjoy being always on. That way the times I do take to stretch and relax are that much more enjoyable though that brief. But my time is mostly divided into getting ahead, and working. I consider my work not only the job that pays me but the things I desire to get done in my life. And then making my home life more enjoyable, whatever that means.
What I do continue to hold to is care... care in life and in my work and in my relationships. Why do things carelessly? That seems the way our country has been dragged down - do everything quick and impersonally. We've lost our masters. I feel it is worth taking the time to make a masterpiece of ones life, everyday and in every way.
To strive for perfection... not to achieve it.
To live in joy, to strive for perfection.
